hello to someone I don’t understand

“Today, because of you what I learned from you every choice
I made was different and my life has completely changed

 

“To not regret…
maybe, I should have asked you out,
but I couldn’t..
Since I knew that you were with him again.

Someone I really can’t be, and
probably, the reason why you needed to end up with me
before winter break.

 

“While doing engineering project,
everyone wanted to work at platt,
but I said to them,
‘I really can’t work at platt,
anywhere is fine for me, but please not there.’

I wanted to keep only good memories as possible,
no matter how they thought me as a weirdo.
and same for case party, though I wanted to go.

 

“I guess,
I am getting to know, the reasons your saying,
you are a bad person.
Though I don’t want, I realize.

However, I still try to not care.
It is you.

 

“Being Secondary?
It was ok in the beginning,
since I believed that
I could be happy just
being around you.
However, I face more
realistic problems.
It was hard for me
to see your changing,
and most of all,
I hate your being
not honest to yourself.

 

“When you are bored during semesters, try to find the shooting on the wall.

With stress and complicated feelings,
I drew it while thinking so much about you.

 

“Anyway, thank you.
Anything form you, even misery and suffering,
I am trying to take it as one of life experiences.
I am kind of sad that I could not write
something I planned or wanted.

I wish you be happy with your life : )

2009.05.

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I don’t know why I waste my time
Getting hung up about the things you say
When I open my eyes and it’s a lovely day.
You know sometimes I feel like I’m
Getting snowed under with the things you say
When I open my eyes and it’s a lovely day – Keane “Snowed Under”

hello to codes. courses. concerts. and car rides

Eh. Today my Gov school friends and I were supposed to have a gathering at 에코누래방 (Echo Music Studio) in Edison, NJ (2090 RT-27, Edison, NJ 08817) yet two of the five people ended up bailing for various reasons leaving Celia, Rory, and me to find something else to do since, although Echo seems to be a REALLY nice place for karaoke, it’s a little pricey. I really wish we could have sang…but oh well. Anyway what we did end up doing was wandering around Celia’s town and going to rent I <3 Huckabees from a DVD rental place while Rory tried to explain to me the confusing (but apparently simple so says Rory) mind of the college boy, or more particularly the mind of a college boy from South Korea who he doesn’t know at all except through things I’ve ranted about to him and Celia. _sigh_

On a side note, I figured out what his message 17171771 meant and well, let’s just say that I wasn’t too surprised to find out what it meant. _shakes head_ I haven’t the faintest idea of what to do about that boy.

So, yes. Anyway in summation, at 6PM EST I drove 25 minutes to Edison, pulled up to Echo, left Echo for Highland Park, chatted with friends, ranted about boys, watched I <3 Huckabees, fell asleep during I <3 Huckabees, woke up with carpet imprinted on my cheek, finished watching I <3 Huckabees, gave hugs, drove back to Echo to pick up my mom’s car, gave more hugs, and drove home.

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For whatever reason I seem to have forgotten to talk about my general summer activities (by general I mean the not exciting stuff…my everyday schedule).

So, since I made the unfortunate but inevitable decision to stay home for the summer, I’ve been taking summer classes at NYU and the Japan Society. I’m currently enrolled in Political Theory (@NYU) and Japanese Language (@Japan Society–big surprise I know) and both of these classes have been pretty dull. According to my Japanese TA Tajima-san, I’m the best student in the class and am the only person who gets 100% on her homework assignments. Not as if that’s a particularly difficult task since the homework is only like 2 pages long and takes maybe 5 minutes (tops) to complete.

Meh.

Political Theory on the other hand…well first let’s just say that Political Theory is essentially a class on the Philosophy of Politics and as far as I’m concerned, that’s like taking two boring subjects and putting them together to make an infinitely less interesting course. Not to mention that my professor is crazy and incoherent and talks way too quickly in his French African accent. His lectures are basically like stream of consciousness about Aristotle, Machiavelli, Hobbes, Locke, and now Rousseau and Marx. I’m happy that there’s only a week left, though that does mean I need to finish my paper and complete a take-home final exam. UGH.

I’ve been trying to organize my life better and iCal has been a big, colorful help. Though I guess I wish I had more going on to fill it up.

I feel kind of strange right now…I guess it’s just a weird mood. Maybe the weather or something.

hello to Asian American Sponsor Program

Yes!

Honestly (I know it sounds pretty arrogant but) I had expected to be accepted into the sponsor program from the start. Almost every one of the current sponsors who I asked about it said “Oh, yeah. Basically everyone who applies gets in! Don’t worry about it.” Yet when it came down to actually applying…The questions seemed to be a lot more intense than I had previously thought. Then I got an e-mail on the 11th saying that I needed to sign up for an interview, well, I began to doubt my qualifications. Apparently this was one of the only years they had needed to hold interviews because so many girls wanted to be sponsors in the coming year. Needless to say, there weren’t enough spots for everyone. I would say roughly 20-30 girls applied, but only (I think) 8 of them were accepted in the end. Even some of my friends, who had DESPERATELY wanted to become sponsors, didn’t make it in.

Overall I’m quite happy that I’ve been accepted.

A high school friend of mind asked curiously after I told him that I was to be an Asian Sponsor next year, “But there are so many of you out there, is that program even necessary??”

I believe that the AASP is an important part of my college (and every other college that has one) experience. Despite the fact that I currently reside on the west coast of America and there are significantly more Asians concentrated there than in most other parts of the country, it’s still important to understand, acknowledge and deal with the various issues that come along with being an Asian in America. Besides all that, this program acts as any other kind of support program to help ease new students into their first year of college, only with an Asian flare.

AASU (Asian American Student Union) Sponsors provide guidance for incoming first-year Asian students.